It's almost 1 AM and I just finished showering. I'm talking under the blanket because the music is pretty loud. (sings) "Last night I lay in bed so blue 'cause I realized the truth they can’t love me like you." I feel so energetic right now, it's a real vibe. Maybe it's just the shower. Tomorrow I have a physical therapy appointment in the morning. I'm determined not to postpone it this time, even though I'm scared I'll press snooze button.
I slept very little last night, only a few hours. I recorded the last entry around 1 AM, then woke up at 5 AM and couldn't go back to sleep. I drank a lot of coffee today.
I also went to take drone photos of some land. It was okay, but it's so hot in Thailand right now, I don't want to go anywhere. I was going to walk around Central because there's a Food Fair, but I was too lazy.
Last night felt heavy; I was feeling down, just thinking random thoughts. I've realized lately, or rather, been aware for a while, that my dopamine baseline seems to be getting higher. I'm not enjoying small things or little moments anymore. I think I'm too addicted to short clips and scrolling feeds without really reading, too much cheap dopamine. It's made me desensitized to everyday life, and I was feeling very down yesterday because of it. I know I need to adjust my phone usage and how I consume media. I should go back to reading books, but I haven't read in so long. I haven't even bought any new ones yet (sighs). Anyway, I'm on a ten-day streak now. This time I'm going to make it a full month.