It's 12:20 am. I just lay down and yawned, and I nearly gave myself a cramp in my neck. Just from yawning. (laughs) I didn't even know I could pull a neck muscle that way. Now I'm exhausted, but I'm legitimately scared to yawn.
I ended up skipping the gym today. This morning, Dad's car was parked right across the driveway, and I didn't have the energy to ask Mom to move it. I told myself I'd go in the evening instead, which never happened.
Instead, I spent the morning talking with Mom and my brother about work and the family business. Things are getting a little tense again. Why do I always seems to mix every possible emotion together at once. (sighs) We vented and talked until early afternoon, and then we all retreated to our rooms.
I killed some time playing RoV and did my Anki reviews. It's over a hundred and twenty words right now, which easily takes three or four hours, so I can't do it all in one sitting anymore. I cleared fifty or sixty cards in the afternoon and saved the rest for 9:00 pm.
For dinner, I went out for shabu with Mom, my brother, and his girlfriend. Mom had planned on cooking tonight, but some things happened — nothing I need to spell out, future me will know what it was. She wasn't in the mood to cook after that, so we went to our semi-regular spot. We hadn't been in a while, and I was craving beef. We didn't overeat, just ate until we were comfortably full. But by the time we got back around six, my throat was completely parched from all the dipping sauce.
Tonight was quiet. Watched two RoV tournament matches, showered, and knocked out the rest of my Anki cards around nine. Finished around ten or eleven, and I've just been listening to music with my headphones on since.
I was feeling pretty restless earlier, with all these swirling emotions about work and everything else. Talking through it out loud helped. I'll keep my headphones on, listen to a few more songs, and try to sleep by one.